JOB
Saying goodbye has never been easy and has always been sad. Meeting a lot of people who kept me company, who made me feel better when I was sad, who laughed at all my jokes, who shared pitchers and buckets of beer with me and who made me wiser than I should be was the best part of having a job. I believe that I spent more time with them than my high school and college friends. I missed a lot in college that I failed to notice that because of them. They filled that void without me noticing it. It felt like going on a roller coaster ride without screaming when it came to a halt and fell back to the ground and around the loops it circled. Don't get me wrong. I surely had fun. A lot of fun.
Becoming a teacher was the best thing that happened to me in the last three years. I gave my love, my whole self to it that I even considered every embarrassment an opportunity. I worked hard to become better. I never stopped studying and generously shared every bit of information I had to my students and I loved it when they appreciate the efforts I exerted. It certainly gave me a certain feeling of satisfaction that I never got when I worked as a telemarketer.
WORK
Just like everybody, I also had my downfalls.
Wherever a company closed and everybody felt like they've been left behind was the most depressing part of it. That made me realize how unstable this job is. There came a time wherein we didn't get paid on time but we remained hopeful that everything would be alright. Lack of transparency, question of loyalty, language barrier, insecurities were some of the things my co-workers and I had to overcome.
Those made me strong yet cold. I've lost trust to some and detached myself from the job I have learned to love. Recently, I have noticed how impatient I am towards my students. I paid no attention to anyone I worked with and just focused on getting the job done. I realized how pathetic I was becoming. I've lost that teacher in me that I longed for redemption.
CAREER
Leaving was not the answer for that redemption I was desperately in need of.
I thought I could make teaching a career or commit myself to it for as long as I could. I wanted to but things changed and I needed to change my plans as well. Without a doubt, it was the best three years of my life. But, I must move on before it's too late and enjoy the great life I'm having while I still have the energy to do so. This excites me. I feel no fear for I believe that whatever happens, I know I can help myself get back up. I've done it before and I'm more than a hundred percent sure that I can do it a million times over.
For that, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to my former bosses, co-workers and students. We all have become good friends and that is the best farewell gift ever. I would also like to apologize to people I hurt during the process. I may not be able to face each of you but my heart is filled with regret to have caused pain. I will forever treasure everything I learned and continuously be grateful that without all of you, I wouldn't be where I am now.
I wish everybody a great life.
Love loads,
Mia
